Poem: The Empty Nursery

I cleaned the nursery today

All the books, clothing and art

Just sitting there catching dust

Gone before I had the chance to start

I took the ultrasounds down

Just a blank spot on the wall

Not knowing where to turn

Nobody to catch me while I fall

The weeks keep counting down

Only a few months until you would show

Like a sailor lost at sea

The tide continues to flow

So many cards from our friends

All wishing us the best

That healing takes time

And my body needs to rest

Add them to the box

The void is big and dark

The light is gone with all your things

My hope not even a spark

Just push through and smile

Nobody will ever know

The deep pain and hurt of loss

As the cracks in my heart deeper go

Are you happy up in Heaven?

Wrapped in Jesus arms and sight

My only hope to see you there

As my days continue to change to night

Just keep breathing and moving

Push through and try to find

The goodness of God in this season

A constant battle in my mind

But the God I trust is silent

Not a prayer of mine going through

All I have left is a heavy heart

And now a cardboard box reminding me of you

Oh my darling

My sweet little lime

You gave my life such purpose

If only for a short time