Was It Me?

It's so difficult not to blame my body for this loss. Everyone says, "You were able to get pregnant! Your body knows what to do now!" But does it? My body miscarried, and I felt my water break at 12 weeks; that isn't what your body is supposed to do at all! I desperately want to blame something, and my body is the first thing that comes to mind; after all, I was the one growing and caring for this child. This is a mental battle I'm facing every day.

Blaming yourself is one of the reasons I believe women don't talk about pregnancy loss. It's common to feel shame and want to hide or hang your head after a miscarriage because you feel like it's something YOU have done wrong. Nobody can give you an answer or a reason for why you miscarried, gave birth prematurely, or lost a pregnancy. It's just something the body does. How do you come to terms with loss with no answers or reasoning? Loss isn't something you get over, it's something you get through.